BROKEN

so yesterday i broke my word, i got Mr D,but he wasnt helpful @all....
for starters,Mr D cannot give head and yestaday i was in the mood for the head dish.
so i called on guy one and he came over.....
he came with ice cream, almost like he read my mind.
i went to the shower and got myself wet, played around with myself while waiting for him to come.
when he came i was already naked,legs widespread and waiting........
he started sucking my boobs, @the same time rubbing my clit, i was already dripping wet on the bed
then he went to my wet pussy and started tonguing, i must say the tongue on this guy is almost magical
as if sucking and licking my pussy wasnt enough, he brought the ice cream, poured on my pussy....i almost went mad with excited, d coolness of the icecream on my pussy was mind blowing, he proceeded to licking every drop out and he continued until the ice cream finished....
then he put this fingers in fucked me with them while he was till licking and sucking on my clit....
i was in cloud 9 and shaking all over and i had multiple orgasms
i was so far gone dat i dint even realize when he put he dick into me, honestly i dint feel anytin and before i could say "jack" he released
im happy,he gave me the head round first, if not i wud av been so pissed, coz it is a waste of time.....
honestly something is really wrong with me, coz 99.9% horny all the time......
i need something more.......

LOSING IT

my life has become very boring. A boring schedule cycle that is swung between classes and home. 

i am constantly horny and in need of a good fuck, most times i get it... ok lemme explain

so there r two guys i can call for that service(well,i kinda just limited it to two "winks")

the first one,he gives wonderful head and wen he fingers me, i basically cum all over the bed,but he has got a small dick and doesnt necessarily know how to use it well.

my mehn, when i need to get my pussy sucked and nipped,that is my guy.........

but with him this service always come with emotional strings, and im not into that shit....

so when he comes, he starts nippling on my boobs,biting,teething,suckling and @ the same time,putting his fingers into my already dripping pussy...he fingers me so hard that,i cum all over, and then he ges down and concentrate on my pussy......... omg, the tongue on this guy is heavenly...he sucks,licks,bites and then he makes me cum again, so i guess,what he lacks dick-wise, he makes up with his tongue and fingers.......

now guy two: he has got the perfect dick,itz like 6 or 7inches, so u kw not too big and not small either,it is just right....

he doesnt like foreplay so to speak, he doesnt like to finger or give head but mehn, the way he uses his dick..........

he thrusts so hard dat im sure he reaches my uterus door knocking on it to open up and get the hamburger being handed to her....

he enters me and i feel like im home, the fuck comes with a scent dat melts everything in me

we could go on and on, that is if i dont get on top and ride the hell outta him...

that is my own best postion and im good @it

so u see,i av two dishes to choose from, but all of a sudden it has become so complicated that even as im so freaking horny,i dont wanna order room service anymore.....

i even tot watching porn will help, but it is making matters worse....

so now,im tempted to go get myself  a MR.D..

he might not b the real deal, but he will help in anyway he can and we will av no complications whatsoever

AN EPIPHANY

so i had an epiphany tonight, realize i av been deceiving myself for far too long.
there is a guy i av been fucking. it started like just a fling and somewhere along the line,i got interested.
i expected him to ask me out,which he dint and when i asked why, he said, he wasnt ready for a relationship,all he wanted was sex........and i accepted that
i cant lie, the sex was amazing, i feel alive after the sex, so i guess datz why i dint mind dat all he wanted was sex, coz datz all i wanted....
then slowly i started to like him a lil bit more than i was supposed to and i started getting jealous....... not a good feeling i must say...
he got interested in this girl,and that is when i started to notice that,he dint respect me or care @all for me,to him it was all abt the sex, i cant really blame him,dat was the agreement... bt just bcoz it is just sex doesnt mean u shudnt respect one another
anyways,so i turned a blind eye to how he behaved,we can b fucking and he'll pick up a call from another chick or chicks (u can imagine)...... or he'll practically chase me away claiming to av important things to do.
as for me, for someone who has pride herself too much in being wise wen it comes the guys, i av been totally stupid.......
why wont he jump on the new chick, when he has bled me dry of everything he wants from me?
how can he respect me when there is nutin to respect? how can he care when he has already gotten all he wanted from me?
i av slept with alot of guys and never given a fuck for any, i dont kw why this one gets to me so much........
so im thinking, it is time to make changes,it is time to get over it....
even tho the sex is like a drug, dat im totally addicted to, but is it worth being treated like rag for?
is it worth losing my pride and dignity for?
HELL NO!!!
i dont think so, so i can decided dat enough is enough!!!
if he is not going to respect me, then i shouldnt be the sex stand anymore......
i shouldnt b the chick he calls where he cant get laid by the chick he is chasing now....
i shudnt b the chick dat warms he bed.....
i dont know why it has taken me this long to realize it, but im happy i av....... now all i av to do is move on from here
perhaps,i should take break from sex in general, i av been having sex for fun, maybe it is time to get serious.....

why does good av to turn to evil?

what is it with people that owe money and refuse to pay back?

when they r pleading with u,it is as if their world is about to crash on them, as soon as that crisis is over,they find it hard to pay back......

im so pissed,i av money but i dont av, can u imagine dat?

anways, so i dont know why, but i feel like this month doesnt wanna come to an end,it seems to b lasting for ages.

so i dont understand how people can to fall in love from the internet,i mean like seriously?

i met this guy on this bbm group chat and we got talking and he asked me out (imagine being asked out on bbm) what hell am i supposed to do with dat?

anyways,so we got talking and it sorta got serious (for him anyways), only for him to start talking abt marriage, i mean like seriously bro?na so dem dey do am nowadays?

is it bcoz some girls just love to b lied to,or that they just decide to be blind?

how will someone u av nevermet,tell u he is abstaining from sex and u blive him, him bodi na firewod? he ismost definitely banging some chick somewhere and yet expects u to b celibate for....why?

coz in their tiny mind it is a man's world?

why cant i av sex like a guy?

i love sex,so why shud i b the one to keep my virginity waiting for the guy to come and ask me to marry him, after he has slept with trillions of chicks

why cant i also sleep with different guys each day (as far as u r protected tho)

so i av decided dat if i wanna fuck, imma fuck as much as i want......eitherways, if imma get married,itz gonna happen anyways........

AN EYE OPENER

SO THIS IS SORTA MY FIRST TIME HERE AND SINCE IM ALWAYS ANGRY,I DECIDED TO VENT IT BY WRITING.
SO YESTERDAY WAS SUPPOSED TO B A GIRLS' NIGHT OUT, WE ALL WENT OUT, LADIES G AND B AND SOME OTHER CHICKS.
WE GOT DRINKING AND DANCING,THAT IS WHEN IT HAPPENED:
I AV ALWAYS PRIDED MYSELF OF BEING "STRICTLY DICKLY" LIKE I LIKE TO SAY ALWAY. BUT IT BEEN A WHILE I AV BEEN HAVING THE URGE OF EXPERIMENTING, U KNOW LIKE EXPLORING MORE.
NORMALLY I AV GIRLS HITTING ON ME BUT I JUAT LET IT SLIDE,LAST NIGHT I DONT KW WHAT GOT OVER ME, I ALLOWED FATE TO TAKE ITS COURSE
SO I BASCIALLY MADE OUT WITH THIS CHICK AND LATELY I CANT GET THE EXPERIENCE OUTTA MY HEAD!!!
DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVE DICK LIKE THE GIRL NEXT DOOR, BUT RECENTLY I AV GOTTEN SO TIRED OF GUYS........
NORMALLY THIS IS ONE EXPERIENCE I WILL SHARE WITH LADY G, BUT I CANT SEEM TO BRING MYSELF TO DO SO!!! SHE USED TO B SOMENE I TRUST (IF I CAN ACTUALLY SAY DAT) COZ THENI COULD TELL HER ANYTHING.
BUT SHE DID SOMETHING I NEVER EXPECTED AND I DONT KW WHY, IM STIL WAITING FOR HER TO OWN UP TO IT EVEN THOUGH SHE VEHEMENTLY DENIED IT WHEN I ASKED HER......
SO NOW I AV THIS THING BOTTLED UP INSIDE AND AV NOWAY TO SEND IT TO...........